I have done many drugs. Is it possible that I hillucinate on a daily basis now? Please read additional details?

I have done what people call Tripple C. I first took 6, then I took 12, then took 6 again. All on different nights. When I took 12, I dont remember anything of the night, but the sound of little kids laughing and chains rattling when I was sitting on my front steps. I also remember go to the local woods by my house and meeting people I have never seen in my life, nor have I seen them since. No they are not a part of my imagination, this is a serious question with REAL factual details of my experience. Ive done computer duster for a couple weeks straight (inhailing the stuff you clean your keyboard with). Ive smoked weed, ive taken what I was told was acid, and ive taken a drug called 2c-e. I have also done synthetic mescaline (not sure on that spelling). Ive done that only three times before. And took about 5 fat lines each time. Another question that I would like to ask, is my case of extreme suicidal thoats about putting a gun to my head and pulling the trigger, and my constant paranoia about someone watching what I do and this plot for people to kill me a result of these drugs? Might I add that before I did these drugs, I had no paranoia and I was truley happy. Please, doctors, physicians, anyone with medical knowledge to answer my questions, please do. I need help finding the answers.